Stain remains

After all these years I've told myself tat the stain is not there. It is as though it vanish just like tat. Just talking to a friend earlier on, i realize one thing, the stain is still there.

No matter how hard i try to remove it forcefully but still is there. After all this years.... what ever method i've use. the stain remains; dwelling in it. That is why when opportunity arrives it just slipped through.

How hard is it to remove it? Some quick. some take years, but i'm still not over it even though it has been almost 3 years. Why? why? Have i fallen into the stain to deep or am i still not over it? I missed the good old days.